You are still a badass boss babe, even when you ask for help.

This past year, I have really tried to focus on the internal workings of myself and realizing that sometimes I might be the issue and not being blind to that. I have been trying to not react as quick, meditating, eliminating triggers and toxic situation out of my life, but still the ABSOLUTE HARDEST out of all is asking for help.

I can’t even tell you how amazing my customers are, SO MANY of you have offered to help and at the time it was hard for me to accept that someone wanted to do something for me, just because. If I’m being honest it still blows my mind a little 🤯💕

As I have been working through this, I’ve learned and now know that this extreme independence is a result of past traumas in my life and it is something that I am still working on within myself.

when I separated from my first husband, to try to get my feelings out at the time I wrote a blog. You can check that out HERE

since you can read the whole story ☝🏻 I won’t go into all the nitty gritty of it and I will just give you a quick run through of it.

We met, and then I got pregnant with Nova when I was 15. I grew up in a religious home and so we got married because it was the right thing to do. It was just a whirlwind of becoming a mom and wife at the age of 16. I seen signs early on of abuse but i was young and naive.

I left several times, but always returned. I wanted my children to grow up in a 2 parent home and with daddy and mommy around. I knew he would never touch the girls or be mean to them. I could handle the brunt of it and things would be fine.

14 years later, several scars from the physical abuse, to many mental scars to count for my girls and myself, affairs, drugs, losing my kids because of the abuse, and finally moving back to Kentucky, starting back at 0 and having nothing, and building and shaping my girls into the young ladies that they are today and to know their worth, and lastly (its a mom thing) building myself into the strong, independent, and self sufficient woman that I am with a deep fear that I NEVER EVER want to be that person again and thinking that if I accept help from anyone it will pretty much instantly throw me back into that place. (Yes I know that’s not true)

Before I go onto the original reason of this post:

If anyone is in a situation and you need to talk or you need help getting out of the situation please don't hesitate to contact me at 502-249-4739 or contact the national domestic violence hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE.

I know it is hard, I know you might be scared, I know you might not want to go live in a domestic violence shelter. I have been there and felt all of those things but it is not ever going to get any better until you take the first step. You might think they are going to change, you might hope and pray they are going to change.. but only by the grace of god will it ever change.

Sooo anyways, know I went into a little back story of why I am like I am, but the original reason of this post was to show you guys this!!!! 🤗👇🏼

I have been a one (Wo)Man show for a long time. My girls help me and honestly I love riding around with them all day and them being able to see the kindness and love in each of your hearts.

Basically my day consisted of waking up, responding to messages, getting ready, making drinks, and delivering drinks x4 or 5 times a day, trying to get to my at home customers, responding to more messages, being a mom, feeding and watering my kids :D, and then working on social media post, doing paperwork, and logistics for the next day starting at around 9pm.

I was struggling to hold my head above water and was barely breathing, i wasnt being the mother i wanted to be, I wasnt being the friend i wanted to be, I was drowning but thought my love for the business and my customers would keep me going.

On average i was only sleeping for about 2 hours a night. I couldn’t slow down because I would fail, and i felt like if I asked for help I was failing. The night of our house break in was the first night that I had went to sleep before midnight. (That’s a whole story for a whole different day) 😏

100% of my ”regulars“ know I am busy and always going and have been great with delivery flexibilit, placing their orders the night before, or at the beginning of the week, and just overall supporting and loving me FOR ME.

on my membership customers I always have at least a few positive quotes that they have sent me or just a small note saying they appreciate me.

how yall always say it’s perfect timing for the quote y’all get. Let me just tell you. Your positivity, support, positive health stories, weight loss stories, and little notes are what has kept me going. it seems the always come at the exact right timing of me doubting my abilities or myself. I have so many ideas and things I want to offer you guys (I have kept in my notes for when I did have more time).

This last week Mrs Jennifer was a godsend. she is actually the person that got me started in Herbalife. She has helped us out in the past here and there and PS - shes the one that used to make our protein balls 😋 She is also brings her past experience with operating the nutrition club in Hodgenville, product knowledge, and past weight loss challenge Experience along with her.

i haven’t had zero text messages in I don’t even know when the last time was. My phone rings and dings all day and I try to respond in between making drinks, but there are those times when about the time I see your message to respond i feel like it’s to late to send a text.

This past week I was able to get our Fb messages down to zero, my text messages, my snaps all down to zero as well as knock out a crap ton of emails. it’s a slow process But I know once caught up, I’m excited to show you all the fun things in store! Biggest change is We are going to offer Pick up options again!

it was super hard to offer pick up hours when I was always out running deliveries.

This will begin next week and the days and times are TBD.

if you are still reading at this point, Thanks for listening to me vent and ramble 😊 and thank you for sticking by me and loving me through my good and bad days 💕

and know that it’s ok to ask for help, it doesn’t make you less, it doesn’t mean your weak.

guess what? it means your human, congrats! 🎊 and once it happens.. let me tell you.. it was a whole new AMAZING week! 😎😎😎😎😎😎